Sawyer (Torey Hope: The Later Years) by AD Ellis
Genre: M/M Romance
Release Date: August 2015
Sawyer Morgan has a secret. Revealing his true feelings to his family could bring devastation and destruction, so he keeps the burden firmly on his own shoulders. When he moves back to Torey Hope to help with the family business, Sawyer’s hidden truth becomes too much to bear.
Luke Hamilton has a past overflowing with emotional and physical scars. A promise to his dying mother prevents him from seeking the love and acceptance he longs for. Taking a job in Torey Hope brings Luke face-to-face with taboo desires he thought long extinguished.
Secrets, lies, hatred, and fear threaten to destroy their lives. But, love has the power to overcome and lay claim to victory.
Will Sawyer succeed in proving to Luke some connections are worth fighting for?
A poignant tale of two hearts valiantly fighting to stay true and find love.
**This is a male/male romance. It has adult themes, language, and situations. Readers sensitive to homosexual relationships, abuse, hate crimes, and derogatory terms should take note. This story is meant only for readers age 18+.**
His brother, Decker, had taken the news fairly well. He’d needed a solo walk through the woods to gather his thoughts; Sawyer suspected his always-in-control, serious, black and white brother also needed to come to grips with the fact that he’d never suspected his brother’s sexual preference was different than his own. How ironic that the one person Sawyer was the closest to in the whole world was the one person who was the most clueless.
Sawyer had held his breath practically the whole time Decker had been walking through the woods. A deluge of rain poured down as the dark sky broke open, yet Sawyer still sat alone at the campfire. His head had started playing tricks on him. You disgust him…he can’t stand the thought of having a gay brother…you’ve lost him…he’s not coming back. But Sawyer held out hope that Decker was just doing his usual thinking things through.
He had breathed a sigh of relief when Decker emerged, soaking wet, from the woods. Walking towards him with purpose, his twin had stopped in front of him and spoke the most heartwarming, sincere words Sawyer had ever heard from him.
“You’re my brother, always have been, always will be. I wish you could have told me sooner, but nothing has changed between us. I’ll be there in any and every way that I can.” Decker grabbed Sawyer and pulled him into a deep embrace, communicating his love and acceptance through his touch.
Telling his cousins, Zach and Kendrick, had been less emotional, and a lot more entertaining. Sawyer had to laugh at the questions his admission had stirred up.
Two words that held such power. Would they laugh? Would they walk away in disgust? Would they be angry?
Zach smiled and nodded. “I think I’ve known that for a long time, man, but thanks for telling me.”
“Wait, you knew? Why didn’t you ever say something? Why did you joke with me about girls?”
“I don’t know, I guess I figured you’d tell me when you were ready. I didn’t want to bring it up if I was wrong and it offended you. I think I joked about girls thinking it would give you the opportunity to bring it up if you wanted to.” Zach stood and walked to his cousin, reaching a hand down, he pulled the other man up into a hug. “Nothing changes, I’ve got your back, man.”
Kendrick sat with his hand rubbing his chin. Would he be the one who couldn’t accept it?
Eyes twinkling and a shit-eatin’ grin on his face, he finally spoke. “What’s it like to suck cock?”
The other three burst out laughing.
★✩★✩★ 5 – Rough, Brutal, yet Full of Hope – Stars ★✩★✩★
~this review may contain minor spoilers~
Part of him felt ready for this next step, another part of him wanted to keep plodding along, keeping his secret, hiding. He was so tired of hiding, but staying hidden brought him comfort. He was tired of secrets, but those secrets were his shield.
This book was actually my introduction to the Torey Hope series and A.D. Ellis and I'm now kicking my ass for somehow letting this series fly beneath my radar. I have to thank the Book Enthusiast for bringing this to my attention – I was on the lists of bloggers contacted because I have previously been involved in tours/promos for M/M romance books and I'm so glad I was. Although this read very much like a standalone, I never got the feeling I was walking into a story at it's halfway point, I am sorry I missed out on these characters back stories – I fell in love with so many of them, I am dying to see how they got to where they are today. As for Sawyer's journey, fair warning – grab some freakin tissues cause damn, this is most definitely an emotion pack book. Lot's of drama, lots of tears, lots of heartbreak, with a feeling of hope and love woven through it. My heart hurt so damn much for Sawyer and Luke for all they have gone through in their lives just for being who they are. They never asked for the trouble and hatred aimed at them, they just wanted to be loved like everyone else and they deserved it no less than anyone else. It's important that you know, there is some fairly graphic abuse taking place in here, towards both of them, from various directions, both physically and verbally. It was hard to take but essential to understanding these characters and where they are coming from, why they are the way they are, why they feel the way the feel. But it's not all doom, gloom, and heartbreak. There are plenty of laughs whenever Sawyer, his twin and cousins are involved – Kendrick reminded me so very much of my own family, freakin hilarious. The support he gets from them and his parents, without hesitation, right from the start, was beautiful. But the star of this book is the blooming relationship between Sawyer and Luke. It wasn't insta-love, though there was plenty of lust, it was a long and hard journey full of pain, devastation, earning trust and mending spirits with some sexy times sprinkled in. If you are a fan of the M/M romance genre, then please give this book a read – it is worth the tears.
“Don't you ever hand your head in shame in front of your family or anyone else. Stand strong and true to who you are. And, if all else fails, use my motto, 'Fuck'em all.'”
A.D. was born and raised in a small farming town in southern Indiana. An avid reader from the time she learned to read, A.D. could often be found curled up somewhere with her nose in a book. Most of her friends and family were not such book enthusiasts, so she got used to dealing with snickers and joking comments about her constant reading habits.
A.D. always dreamed of being a teacher. Graduating from Indiana State University in 1999 and earning a Master’s Degree from Indiana Wesleyan in 2003, she met her goal of entering the world of education. A.D. has been teaching in the inner city of Indianapolis, Indiana for 16 years; most of her years of experience have been in 3rd, 4th, or 5th grade.
A.D. loves teaching fractions, variables, probability, and graphing in Math. She loves almost all aspects of English Language Arts. Figurative language, theme, making predictions, drawing conclusions, inference, context clues, making writing come to life, A.D. loves it all! Her students don’t always share in that enthusiasm.
Ms. Ellis met her husband in college in 1996 and they married in June of 2000. She lives in a south side suburb of Indianapolis, Indiana with her husband, two school-aged children, and a hyperactive Yorkie named Snickers. When she’s not reading or writing with music blaring, she can be found shopping at thrift stores, reading to her children, and sweating at the gym.
A.D. began her writing journey in October 2013; she is grateful for the friends and support she’s found along the way.
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