For A Reason
by T.N. Cole
She loved me.
I failed her.
She loves me.
I'll break her.
Tristan Westdyke seems to have it all: he's handsome, athletic, smart, and admired. What people don't see beyond the façade, though, is the pain and guilt eating away at his soul. Blaming himself for the loss of another person, Tristan trudges through life not allowing himself to feel.
But when the beautiful and energetic Katelyn Sharp barrels into his life, Tristan is helpless to resist emotions long buried. A connection slowly grows between the two, yet secrets and deceit threaten to shatter the fragile trust and love they’ve found.
Can two people who have been hurt and betrayed open their hearts up once more? Can both accept that all may have happened For a Reason?
I reached up and pushed Kate’s hair out of her face. It was pulled to one side, but it had long fallen out of the updo it was in when the sight of her first took my breath away tonight. I lightly traced my fingers over the bandage covering the right side of her forehead and I hovered over the outline of some of the bruises and scratches. I watched my fingers, and I felt her watching me—waiting for me to tell her something. I wanted so badly to trace her lips on my exploration of her face—to feel her breath on my fingertips. But, I forced myself to pull back. “Don’t look at me like that,” I finally whispered.
“Like what?” she frowned.
“Don’t look at me like I saved you. I’m the reason this happened to you. You’re looking at me like you’re so happy that I’m here. Those guys shouldn’t have slipped something in your drink, or whatever they did. If I were paying attention, they wouldn’t have almost made off with you. I did this to you, and don’t you fucking forget it.” I stopped to take a deep, shuddering breath and buried my face in my hands.
“Funny,” Kate said coldly as she leaned forward. “I didn’t peg you as the victim type.”
I reared back. “What?”
“You heard me,” she snapped. “I was the one who had something slipped in my drink. And apparently, I was the one who was almost kidnapped. But I wasn’t. Because you stopped them from taking me. You brought me here. I’m safe. So, quit the pity party on yourself.”
My hands had fallen from my face during her tirade to meet her now angry glare. I didn’t know if I was supposed to be mad at what she was saying or not, but I didn’t have the time to figure it out because she wasn’t done yet. “Do you know how Aimee knew to go get you from the waiting room? I begged her to go get you because, somehow, I knew you would be there. I knew you were the one who saved me from whatever caused me to end up in the freaking hospital. So, none of this is your fault. Yes, we shouldn’t have separated, but that’s on both of us. But, it’s not my fault or your fault that some asshole roofied me, capisce?”
She was breathing heavily by the end of her rant. She slowly fell back against the pillows, closing her eyes. I watched her as she got her breathing under control, knowing I had to choose my next words carefully. I didn’t want to upset her more, and I knew that everything she said was true. “Hey. Kate.” I threaded my fingers through hers and waited until she slowly opened her eyes to peek at me. “You’re right. You’re absolutely right. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to upset you more; it’s just... You were so gorgeous tonight. I wanted you to stay by me, but I couldn’t ask you for that. And all of a sudden, I couldn’t find you, and then you were almost kidnapped, and I couldn’t get you to open your eyes. I couldn’t see your beautiful brown eyes,” I was so quiet; I knew she had to be straining to hear me. I didn’t want her to know how helpless I had felt. How I felt like I had failed and lost all over again. And how my feelings for her were getting too intense and they were scaring me.
She tightened her grip on my hand. “I heard you, you know. Through the haze, you said ‘Katelyn, please’. And that’s how I knew something was wrong. So, I fought to wake up. You brought me back.”
I closed my eyes, fighting off the onslaught of emotion threatening to take over me. If only I had been able to save Mel like I was able to save Kate. I didn’t know what else to say. I was exhausted and I knew she had to be in even worse shape than I was. “You should get some rest, Kate. We can talk in the morning. I’ll be here. I’m not going to leave you.”
★✩★✩★ 5 – Blown. Away. – Stars ★✩★✩★
~this review may contain minor spoilers~
Katelyn's happiness was intoxicating. She seemed so naïve – so easy to please – and I envied her. I couldn't remember a time when I didn't have something or another weighing heavily on my shoulders. And for five years now, I had been drowning. Maybe she would be the one to pull me out of the water.
Tristan Westdyke may seem to have it all – he gorgeous, sexy, athletic, smart and has girls falling over themselves to get at him. But what people don't know is how emotionally disconnected he is, how he blames himself for the loss of someone close to him and is weighed down with so much guilt he barely makes it through each day for the last five years. He doesn't see a way out of the dark hole he has buried himself in and doesn't really want one – in his mind he deserves to suffer. All it takes is one pair of chocolate brown eyes to throw his life into a tailspin...
Katelyn Sharp comes storming into his life and no matter how hard he tries to push her away, she just won't have it. As her blinding light starts to clear out the shadows of his world, emotions he has long since buried start to bombard his tattered heart and try as he might, he just can't stop it. As a connection forms and a friendship develops into more than he may be ready for, secrets threaten to destroy them all. Is he ready to accept that maybe everything happened for a reason and is it possible to open his heart for another? Or will it be too late for both of them? After all, not everything is as it appears.
Thinking of her taste, her moans, her hands in my hair – it was all too much for me. I knew I shouldn't have been thinking of her in this way. I really shouldn't have been thinking of her at all – I should be staying the hell away from her. But my dick didn't get the message. The more I tried to stop thinking about her, the harder I got.
Ever since I discovered Stephen King in the 6th grade, I've been a bookworm. My hobby became an obsession when Harry Potter came into my life. Becoming a blogger seemed like a natural progression and now my obsession is more like a second job – albeit, an unpaid one that I happen to freakin LOVE with the bonus of being introduced to some pretty fab books I might otherwise have missed. The icing on the cake? Being able to share my love with other people every damn day. My point to all of this is, with as many books as I read on the regular, I've noticed that I have become slightly harder to impress. I still love books of all kinds but it takes something truly special to stand out in my mind. This was one of those books. It's been awhile since I've lost sleep because I couldn't put a book down, was completely distracted at work because all I wanted to do was get back to reading, did little in the way of housework and was late getting dinner on the table, all because I just HAD to see what was gonna happen next. This had my attention right from the beginning and just Would. Not. Let. Go. Tristan was not always easy to love, in fact – he was a bit of an ass for quite awhile. I understood where he was coming from and even got why it was so hard for him to let anyone in, but it didn't stop me from wanting to slap the shit outta him more than once. But let me tell you, he did win me over in a big way. When that man loved he loved FIERCE, nothing and no one would stand in his way from keeping what he wanted and he was loyal without question. He really was amazing when he let himself be. Katelyn was a bit of an enigma. I loved her, she was funny and determined, sweet and understanding, but it was clear there was a whole lot about her we didn't know. At first, I was kinda disappointed that the story was almost entirely told from Tristan's POV – I'm the type of reader that likes to get in the heads of both of the leading characters, it just helps me to connect with them on a deeper level. BUT, once the story began to unravel, secrets were revealed and we got a peek into Kate – I completely understood why the author played it out the way she did and loved her for taking that road. I really can't imagine this unfolding any other way than it did. There was plenty of drama, tons of angst and tears, laughs, steam, EXTREME sexual tension and smokin hot sex loaded with some amazing dirty talk, bit most of all – there was hope and love, friendship and healing. I don't want to say too much more on this, you really just have to experience it as it comes to truly appreciate the journey these people are going through and the twists that are thrown at you won't have nearly the same impact if you don't go in blindly. So I'm simply going to leave you with this – READ THIS BOOK, it's a journey you won't soon forget and one that landed T.N. Cole on my One-Click-Addiction-List for a long time to come.
“I belong with you. I belong to you. I didn't think I was capable of love. I didn't even think I was worthy of love. But with you, all I want to do is show you how much I love you. Every day. All the time. Because you're mine and I'm yours.”
T.N. Cole spends her time seeking new adventures, determined to make her life a memorable story. A recent graduate with a bachelor in biology, T.N. is headed to graduate school at Texas Tech to pursue her long time dream of becoming a pharmacist. When she's not reading, writing, or studying, you'll find her trying to stay out of trouble or planning her ultimate dream of traveling the world.
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